Before I start, I want you to know I’m not even mad. You’re not the first or probably the last to turn over my case. The moment that you gave me the pity look, and said “you will never get better, you will have a feeding tube the rest of your life, and I can’t help you.” Tears immediately welled up in my eyes, and my stomach sank to my feet. That was the worst feeling, when you gave up on me.
When you walked out the door, you didn’t see it, but my mom grabbed my hand and said “we will not settle for that answer. We are leaving.”Let me ask you, Doctor, I wouldn’t wish my situation on my worst enemy, but if your child was in my position, would you give up so easily? I may not be your daughter, but I am someone else’s daughter, I am a sister, and someone’s friend. I had a life of my own until I got sick. I know I shouldn’t put so much hope into one appointment, but when you go through the absolute horrendous year and a half of your life, you can’t help but think maybe this is it. This could be the light at the end of the extremely dark tunnel. Maybe this appointment will be the one to change my life. But it wasn’t. I’m not mad at you, however, I had a lot of faith in you. I’ll tell you something Doctor, your appointment didn’t break me. I wiped away those tears and picked myself back up. Our appointment lit a fire in me to not only prove to you, but myself that I will get through this. I will find a new normal life. I won’t be on a feeding tube the rest of my life. I will find someone to help me. Just because you gave up, doesn’t mean I will. I deserve to have as good of a life as anyone else. So I thank you, for our appointment. If it weren’t for you, I probably wouldn’t have as much motivation, to prove to everyone else that I will win.
The girl who won’t quit ❤