My journey officially began 2 years ago. Wow, it’s truly insane to think I’ve been chronically ill for that long. It’s strange to think after countless amounts of tests, Doctors appointments, and trials of treatment; I have been going through this for 2 years. I have experienced more in 2 years, than some people go through in a lifetime. The word “chronic illness” seems so vague, but has been completely life-changing for me.
I have so far been diagnosed with lupus, fibromyalgia, POTS, EDS, celiacs disease, and CFS. Unfortunately, because of the condition I was/am in, 2 years ago I had to temporarily put college, my job, and my hobbies on hold. I was lost, and in an extremely dark place. I used to be a very independent person, and I had to learn how to let go of that control, so I could be taken care of. I had/have to miss out on big events and plans, because I didn’t feel good.
I learned who was actually there for me. During hard times, you see that people you thought would always be there for you may not be, and people you never expected to be there for you, are there for you every step of the way. You create very close bonds during hard times, and distance yourself from those you feel almost betrayed by.
Being ill really opened my eyes. I can discuss all of the negatives my illnesses have brought to my life, but there are some positives. My caregivers and others who have seen me at my absolute worst, and never once left my side- I will forever treasure you, and have a special place for you in my heart. Words can’t even express how thankful I am for you. From the bottom of my heart, thank you.
I was introduced into the writing world almost a year ago. Wow, the impact writing, sharing my story, and getting to know everyone in the blogging community has made on my life, has been certainly special. Getting to know the chronic illness bloggers, and my new blogging friends has been truly amazing.
I now, see the world differently. I know the world is not always a safe and happy place, and that’s why I now strive to make a difference in this world. My mindset has completely changed. I’ve always been an optimist person, but with being ill, I’ve learned being negative because I’m hurting will not help anyone else. It takes more energy to be negative and mean, than it is to be positive. I don’t allow myself to go to a dark place. It’s not always easy to find the good in every situation, but it’s worth it. The mindset you create by being more positive, is a truly freeing feeling.
My illness has taught me that no matter what I go through in life, I can overcome it, to always stay strong, and positive while going though it. Since becoming ill, all I want to do is help others. I want to be the voice for others who don’t have one. I also know how precious life is, before becoming ill, I thought I was invincible. I now live each day like it’s my last, and I don’t take a single second for granted
My life has truly changed within these 2 years. I can honestly say, even though my body and pain is a struggle, my mindset, the bonds I have created with my loved ones, and starting my blog is something I am forever grateful for. I will never give up, I will always stay strong, and I will overcome this. Because I am a warrior, and you are too. ♡